Hi everyone! I wanted to share with you my latest news and update you on why I haven’t been posting much lately.
Last spring I started a big decluttering mission in our house and purged at least 50% of our stuff. It was an intense, physical project that I worked on while the kids were at school for about two months straight. I hauled carload after carload to my church where we were gearing up for a yard sale. I ate peanut butter and ginger beer for lunch, cast aside makeup and was often wearing a cap over my unwashed hair.
It was all worth it. Thursday, June 2, the day before my kids’ final day of school I reached a good stopping point. There were a few things left undone, but the big push was over.
And here is where things got interesting.
After packing up the last carload, I collapsed into my bed and immediately felt a huge sense of relief. I hadn’t anticipated it so soon. I thought the busy-ness would resonate longer, but I was light as air. I felt spacious, open and ready. At that glorious moment, God swooped down into the space (this has only happened to me so clearly a couple other times in my life). It was as if he was not going to let me get distracted and fill the space with anything else.
We had an exchange which I look back on as both swirling movement and words. I expressed that I felt more poised to trust his lead and he very quickly increased my faith and trust. This all happened so fast. It seemed that I was on a different plane.
And then I realized that I might be pregnant. For those who might not know, we have a 9-yr old son and a 5-yr old daughter. We entertained the idea of having another child a few years back but both felt led away from it. Incidentally, I’m 38. Mentally – the door was closed. The thought of being pregnant again scared me greatly but the closeness I was feeling to God superseded the fear and I committed to trusting him no matter what.
Funny how these fateful moments happen and then we go on as normal. I got out of bed and decided there was no way I was pregnant (we were always cautious).
But two days later (now I was 5-6 days late) I pulled out the dollar-store pregnancy tests from under the sink where they had been sitting for years. Chris had taken the kids to the pool. It was Saturday and I thought later in the evening he might make one of his signature cocktails and I wanted to make sure I could sip it without worry. Still, I really didn’t think I was pregnant.
Next thing I know I am shaking, holding a positive pregnancy test in the bathroom. Then another one.
Soon after, everyone came bustling in and the kids started washing up. I hesitantly told Chris the news and he looked at me like I was from the moon. I showed him the tests (“did I read it right??”) and slowly it set in. We still can’t figure out the whens and hows of it all, but that’s ok. We’re excited!
Since then it has been a whirlwind of emotions, mostly positive. Thankfully I was able to rummage through our yard sale donations to retrieve the pack-n-play, mega blocks and other essentials (going to try and keep it minimal this time!)
First trimester was something of an abyss. Now that I’m coming out of it, I look forward to posting more!
As for the new direction with the blog, I’d like to expand to all things natural and simple for the home – cooking, simplifying/minimizing, reducing toxic load, keeping kids healthy and focused. All things home and life related – in addition to recipes.
By the way – it’s a girl!
Stay tuned and thank you for reading!